Wavering Faith

The other day my very pregnant friend sent us an email. She is due to give birth sometime in the middle of December. The problem is that the gynecologist she trusted with all her heart had been summoned home since her family members got very sick. She said that she had been worried about who would help her out during her delivery, especially IF there were problems and she had to undergo a C-section. She said she felt guilty when she felt that her faith started wavering. But then she kept on praying and she decided to just believe, just believe in Him.

This reminds me about my wavering faith, too. Even though my mind knows the greatness of God, yet my fears can crumble my faith in Him. I am SO very weak, but I'm GLAD that He knows that I'm SO weak. He knows that, yet He still loves me the way I am.

I wonder why Jesus said these words:

"I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." (Matthew 17:20)

Why "as small as a mustard seed"? If it's so easy to accomplish, then there would probably be many mountains moving around on earth as Christians tell them to move he he he he he...Just kidding he he he...

However, the Bible said that there were people with GREAT faith. I wonder how they could accomplish that. I wonder if they NEVER experience wavering faith at all. Is that possible? It seems highly unlikely, except if they can maintain a WONDERFUL personal relationship with God 24/7. Can we ever accomplish that without the help of the Holy Spirit?

Yeah, yeah, these are just my musings. I find that when I focus on my own fears, I start questioning God's actions and my heart becomes hardened. Fear is really a debilitating emotion. I've surrendered those fears to God and I hope He'll continue whispering His truths to me. I wanna hear His voice...

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John 14:27, "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." (NIV)

John 16:33, "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." (NIV)

Is My Faith Strong Enough?

The other day I read an article on faith that blew my mind away. I read it in the website I've mentioned once: Answers to Tough Questions. (written by Dan Vander Lugt)

Here are the lines that blew me away:

1. If we believe that our faith must be perfect, we have established an unattainable goal and enslaved ourselves to a new form of works-salvation.

2. People who think that their faith must be perfect before it will be acceptable to God ignore dozens of scriptural examples of people whose trust in God was imperfect, yet their faith was still accepted by Him. (There are also examples from the Bible, click the article to read them)

3. ...it isn't the perfection of our trust that matters, but the perfection of God's love and forgiveness.

WOW!!! I never really dwelled on this before. I know my faith is nothing compared to lots of people out there. However, what counts is God. That God doesn't compare me with anyone else. That HE stays the same even though everything surrounds me changes. He knows I'll screw up every now and then. He knows that my faith wavers. He knows how hard life can sometimes be, yet He is still there for me. He doesn't compare me with anyone and I'm SO grateful for that!!! He is LOVE and He'll always be love. I've just begun to make little steps to learn His love and I'm already amazed. I'm truly looking forward to being more and more amazed by Him.