The Day(s) The Key Was Forgotten

Before I begin telling you about the key, I just wanted to share something cool that I just saw online. It's a camera extender called Xshot! It's a gadget that's lightweight (and of course extendable) so that we don't need to ask a stranger to take pics of us. Pretty cool, eh? Maybe I should ask hubby to give it to me for my next birthday (it costs only $29,95 for a regular compact digicam extender - there are several types of Xshot in the site) ha ha ha...

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Anyway, I forgot to tell you the other day when I forgot my apartment key when I went outside. First of all, in the morning I went to the supermarket to buy some groceries, then I stayed home for a while and in the afternoon (at around 3 pm) I went out again, BUT this time I wore a different jacket 'coz I felt too hot when I got out the first time. When I left the apartment the second time, just as I was closing the door, I remembered that I had left my apartment/bike keys inside the pocket of the other jacket. Darn!!!

Good thing I didn't leave my mobile inside ha ha ha...so I did go and buy some stuff that I needed in a store, then at around 3.45 pm I called R2 to ask when he would be coming home (usually he comes home at around 4 pm, but sometimes he does overtime). I told him what had happened and I said I'd wait for him to finish work in a flea market (the flea market was right next to R2's office). Both buildings are actually located near our apartment (thanks to our apartment's location that's smack dab downtown) - around 1-2 minute walk away.

So I browsed around the flea market and then at 4 pm R2 called me to say that he was ready to go home he he...Then he told me that while I was in Indo, he had also forgotten his keys TWICE HA HA HA HA HA HA...I asked him why he hadn't told me about this when we chatted while I was in Indo, but he just smiled. Then I said, "I bet your conscious mind must've put away those experiences at the farthest corner of your brain."

Then I asked him how he could get inside 'coz I was still in Indo. He said that he had gone to the office of the company who owns the building he he he...Fortunately the office was located right on the first floor of the building, so he didn't have to go faraway to get the key.

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Ahhhh...where did our brains go? HI HI HI HI HI...Anyway, Christmas is coming soon and the end of the year is near...I wish everybody has had a beautiful weekend! Tomorrow and on Monday there's this Christmas market downtown, so maybe I'm gonna have a look at it and take some pics.

Healing Myself

As a follow-up to my other blog entitled "Evil", I'm almost 100% healed. Basically I just took time off from the world and be totally selfish. And I did ask for more attention from my beloved, so that helped, too. :-))) I realize now that the problem actually consisted of tiny incidents that I thought didn't bother me THAT much. As usual, once you disregard such incidents, they build up and suddenly you explode in a way that baffle yourself. I started to think of one single reason as to why I felt like shit the other day. I couldn't find it. I kept on going circles and circles. And now after I took time off from most people, I'm at peace with myself again. The road to healing has been opened and I'm now walking on it. It IS tough to accept yourself just as you are sometimes, especially when you look at your surroundings and you feel SO small. It IS tough to try to understand other people when you FEEL that they've simply considered you as an "invisible" person. The questions that bothered me so much were these, "Do I even matter? Does everything I've ever said or done or given matter at all in the long run?"

Then I stumbled upon this quotation:

The success of love is in the loving - it is NOT in the result of loving. Of course it is natural in love to want the best for the other person, but whether it turns out that way or not does not determine the value of what we have done.
- Mother Teresa

And I also read her speech here: Mother Teresa's Speech - Oslo 1979.

The quotation and her speech REALLY moved me and comforted me. It hurts to think that what I've done would be "forgotten" or "unappreciated", but I have to do it as though I were doing it to God himself. It won't be easy, but I know God'll understand whenever I feel like shit. I know that at least He would understand. And when I started talking to my hubby about this topic, it also comforted me because he understood the feeling. And THANKS to Michelle, as well, who comforted me by commenting on that particular blog. It also helped me feel better. God bless you!