So, let me just say this to you:
Wishing all of you who celebrate Christmas a beautiful, peaceful, joyful, and hopeful one (not a hectic, messy one). May we always remember the true meaning of Christmas: the birth of Jesus Christ.
And to all of you, I wish you also a wonderful New Year with the hope that we become better and better as time goes by no matter what life gives.
One thing I haven't been thankful these days is being reproductively challenged. Before I experienced it, I never knew this "world" before. I never knew that it was a life crisis that could really tear apart a couple and that it has ripple effects on other aspects of life. I never knew that it would change me this way. It's definitely NOT easy and if I could, I would just take a "forgetful pill" so that I forget that we're trying to have a baby (as to what others refer to "just relax and it'll happen"), but unfortunately there's no such a pill. So the only thing I can do is just be thankful 'coz it means that I can connect with all the people who've experienced the same/a similar problem. Because truth be told, the only thing I feel GOOD about being reproductively challenged is when I can really listen to another infertile person and be able to understand completely and be able to support her and at least be able to make her feel that she's NOT insane and or alone in her struggle.
So God, I know you hear me now...I want to thank YOU for allowing me to experience this. May I grow not as a bitter, cynical, despaired, frustrated, and jealous person (though those feelings may come up time and time again), but may I always hold on to Your promises and be able to be as useful as I can be through my experiences.
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
- Psalm 34:18
And here's a Christmas song to all of you. I like this rendition of "Silent Night" by Sixpence None the Richer and Dan Haseltine (Jars of Clay).
Merry Christmas to you too, Mel =) May you have a peaceful Christmas and a joyful New Year!
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas & Happy New Year to you and husband, Amel.
ReplyDeleteLovely view....
Have a wonderful Christmas and New Year to you and family, Amel! :)
ReplyDeleteAmel, it was good to send out your gratitude to God before the end of the year the way you did. All I can say is good things come to those who wait. Perhaps the New Year will provide you with your dreams. Keep the Faith!
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas Amel to you and R2 and the rest of your family. And may the New Year provide you with all that your heart desires.
Merry Christmas to you and your family! You will have loads of fun I am sure.
ReplyDeleteYou always seem to have that wonderful insight when it comes to accepting all the good, the bad and the ugly that life brings. You're so strong and such a beautiful mind that I'm sure things will get better in one way or another... the wa life works is unpredictable, but you deserve the bes of luck! Happy holidays!
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas Amel.
ReplyDeleteMay Joy be your gift this Christmas.
May Love, Hope, and Faith be your treasures in the New Year.
Actually, having babies are not the ultimate goals in a marriage. We don't have children and we are living the life to the fullest. In many aspects, humans are taking too much out of this world, the drinking water is getting less and dirtier, the landfills are chocked, the air is polluted, one less baby to pollute this world is actually a good thing.
ReplyDeleteTHANK YOU for all the greetings and beautiful wishes, people!!! :-D
ReplyDeleteBogey: Just trying to change my perspective so that I don't take things too seriously he he...
Bitter Chocolate: THANK YOU for your kind words. :-)))
Mother Hen: Yep, I know my cousin and her hubby who live life to the fullest without any kids, but I don't think we're quite there yet in this trying-to-conceive journey. It's hard to get rid of the longing to have a child he he he...we'll see how our journey ends later.
You said: "So God, I know you hear me now...I want to thank YOU for allowing me to experience this. May I grow not as a bitter, cynical, despaired, frustrated, and jealous person (though those feelings may come up time and time again), but may I always hold on to Your promises and be able to be as useful as I can be through my experiences."
ReplyDeleteI was just stood outside with a glass of home made Baileys Irish Cream in hand (not mint mind you.. but you will have to come round and try some...) and I was thinking something very similar and I'd not read this blog at the time... but I was saying that I was 'Shedding any negativity and bitterness from 2009 and drawing in all the positivity of the New Year 2010'.
Love to you and yours! HNY!