So, let me just say this to you:
Wishing all of you who celebrate Christmas a beautiful, peaceful, joyful, and hopeful one (not a hectic, messy one). May we always remember the true meaning of Christmas: the birth of Jesus Christ.
And to all of you, I wish you also a wonderful New Year with the hope that we become better and better as time goes by no matter what life gives.
One thing I haven't been thankful these days is being reproductively challenged. Before I experienced it, I never knew this "world" before. I never knew that it was a life crisis that could really tear apart a couple and that it has ripple effects on other aspects of life. I never knew that it would change me this way. It's definitely NOT easy and if I could, I would just take a "forgetful pill" so that I forget that we're trying to have a baby (as to what others refer to "just relax and it'll happen"), but unfortunately there's no such a pill. So the only thing I can do is just be thankful 'coz it means that I can connect with all the people who've experienced the same/a similar problem. Because truth be told, the only thing I feel GOOD about being reproductively challenged is when I can really listen to another infertile person and be able to understand completely and be able to support her and at least be able to make her feel that she's NOT insane and or alone in her struggle.
So God, I know you hear me now...I want to thank YOU for allowing me to experience this. May I grow not as a bitter, cynical, despaired, frustrated, and jealous person (though those feelings may come up time and time again), but may I always hold on to Your promises and be able to be as useful as I can be through my experiences.
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
- Psalm 34:18
And here's a Christmas song to all of you. I like this rendition of "Silent Night" by Sixpence None the Richer and Dan Haseltine (Jars of Clay).