I feel that my brain's overloaded with questions and thoughts these past week. My subconscious is working hard even in my dreams. I feel that there are SOOOOOOOOOO many things that I don't know still. And the things that I think I know may also be so limited and it makes it hard to be fair.
In a quest to be a better person, these obstacles jar my stance and now I need to think about all the data that I've accumulated. Some make sense, some doesn't make sense...I hunger for truth, hunger for guidance to tell me what I'm supposed to do.
In this life where truth is bent and reality can have a zillion faces, I feel "lost in translation". These don't count the inner battles that one has to face in order to tackle one's own weaknesses and negative sides. Thus I'm raising the white flag of peace in order to have time to clear everything out, because I can't see clearly amidst this battle and questions and thoughts. It's too loud and noisy. ---> Isn't it ironic? I live in one of the most peaceful and serene and quiet surroundings ever, but it doesn't matter when your inner self is noisy.
This may be one of my most "unclear" ramblings ever. It's hard for me to explain the details when I myself don't know them clearly. Maybe someday when I get enlightenment, I'll be able to digest all the data.